well what a few days its been the boy sick as a doggy and i am unable to help him , to wash away his tears and make the fever go away , its not helped bye the fact im sick and so is slave , even now slave and i have been snipping at each other, she says hurtful things i pretend i dont hear or dosnt affect me but it all dose , i just dont show it to give her the enjoyment of knowing it cuts deep , not that she gets enjoyment , but im babbbling now .
In sumary were all sick here and snippy with each other , ive been very selfish today not focued more time in making sure the boys need s are met and he is all good , i sit in my own self sickness feeling sorry for my self, ive been a sook , i had planned all these fun little games for slave been doing some readng going to put her through her paces and now its all for shit , not that we cannot do it next weekend we have off toghter but i think thats the christmas weekend , 1 thing i have that has been helping me out and i can hear slave clenching her teeth right now , lol
WoW has been giving me a sense of relif , not that its bettr than slave but i can get all my negtive emotions out in a game that pretty much runs around combat and lots of it , plus there are new features so a 5 hour raid to just get started ( not including the raid) is now around 30 seconds to maybe 5 mins , and the raid it self , so far around 40 mins , wich is down from its usal 2 hours , this has been a lifesaver , i know most wont understand but , when i play wow i get a diffrent high to when i spank slave , its diffrent but the same , much like having her run about in the game with me , made me sooo fucking proud , i had my hot lil girl in a game i loved , to me its a dream come true and i know im sounding like a total nerd but its true ,
So what dose that leave me with now?
up the creek pretty much , i have tio juggle my hot lil slave who i love so much who is sick , the boy who is so sick cos he cannot just say mumy i need tablets or mum can i get a drink , so he needs extra care and then there is me the big sook ,
i got up this morning and i hurt , fuck me did i hurt , but poor slave i could see the how tired she was , her voice just confirmed it more , im weak and sick but slave and the boy must come first . we havent eaten and im so weark but no hunger , i dont know im not making anysense
bottom line im a sook i need to give more than i am , slave needs her rest the boy needs to be looked after and im not pulling my weight ,
Master
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