the girl in the bubble

well slave in now in her bubble and it will be fun keeping her there , the problem is getting that mix of our boy and time for her , you see its not as easy as it sounds , our boy is totaly awesome and i want to play and be silly and have fun and such and so forth BUT the cost is slave finds me burnt out when i go to bed , so what is the answer do i pull back on fun with the boy , so slave gets more of what she and i need ? yes sadly in some was it dose , wich means leaving the awesome dude with mummy more than normal cos i dont want to burn out too much,
i will assume this means on line here or wow wich is fine dosnt have to be for long periods, just not full on 120% like it has been , i think it will also give me more time to plan play ideas and kink work items i wish to start once i have free cash ( when dose that happen lol) for now i need to focus in keeping slave in her bubble and my self happy , we will get there and im sure at times she will not be in her bubble but just makes going back there even more fun

Master

when you get too close to the sun

Pain would be a great way to describe how im feeling right now and tired not far behind it , its been a mixed weekend wihtout the boy, we had about 24 hours of total submission , it didnt go as well as i had liked , i feel im being too soft on slave and i had to punish her this morning, and a little this afternoon to remind her of what had happened when we woke up , but to be honest right now i hurt , my knees throb like my cock dose when i see her in her slave out fits.My back i dunno it stings greatly too , i put on a brave face but i do hurt , there is also something i fear , well a few things work and the like being shits , but this summer i do fear , unlike most summers ive wacked on alot of weight , last year i was 100 kg , now i dont know but i would say at least 120 to 130 , this summer is going to hurt , the hea will hit hard and i have to be up for it , the good news is slave will be losing it with me , ive planned a few swim weekends and beach fun once its just me and slave , plus minor weights to to help tone her arms up , nothing too great it will take time but hopefully slave will get that body she wants so bad ,

As for the kink in our lives, friday was fun in many ways and in others i lacked being the good Master i should be , i get so caught up in making sure slave has little to nothing to clean up when i should be holding her letting her know im there for her , sat was fun too but once again i need to give her more contact to let her know master loves her and is there for her,
 I feel sometimes im too soft or too strict or ..... i know i should just let my Dom side flow and let her follow , but some times its not that easy, i will say this much i love her company and its feels more right when im more in more control , we have the boy back and some respect i will pull back on the play just for tonight i just hurt too dam much , but i think punishments will stay , as for what i will do? depends on what has happened how bad it was ,
when you get too close to the sun you burn up , im not burnt up or burnt out but i feel like ive lost sight of how to be a better master for slave , im not sure if its pressure from work or my knees i just feel i should be doing more taking more control , i think while at work ( working nights now im going to study the rules and burn them into my brain , so i can be the totally freaking most awesome master for her ,
i love her so very much

feeling low

Ive been down a bit latey and its been worrying slave and i dont know how to explain it to her the why and were for's , to put it bluntly its not just one thing its a little of many things ,
 Firstly its christmas every christmas from age 14 ive hated pretty much , ive loathed christmas i put on hat fake smile that fake oooohh and ahhh but at the end of the day i go home and just hate the world , i dont think its chirstmas per say its all the hype all the must must must that comes along with it , we must be extra nice and extra freindly over this break , its like to cram a years worth of good will into a few days , it feels so fake i want to scream , also i think ppl horde too much food and go a lil crazy , i guess thats why i go a lil crazy lol , i also think many many years of broken dreams of christmas have left me bitter , yes im a srcouge while others at christmas are all fake smiles and ho ho ho , im not smiling calling them a ho ho ho , I am trying to get into the christmas spirt , but the more i try the more it feels fake , i will get excited when sams opens his presants and a gift to slave but the rest ...... im going to try i think its needs to be a slow not forced , i think once its 2 weeks till sams birthday i will be all chirpy ,

So thats one reason i guess i saw my dog , whom i call son with a dead cat in his mouth the other day , to some a dead cat big deal? my dog was bought up with cats lived with cats loved cats and was even fear ful , i never thought in a million years he would have killed one, it breaks my heart to see what he did ,also we have today bought home a new kitten and im going to aovid bonding with it as much as slave , it might sound cruel but its slaves little bundle of joy i wont let it favor me over her , i want her and kitty to be the best of buddys , i hope sometime soon i will be going back to work , will be nice if she has a little man to purr with in bed and sit on the couch with her.

Lastly and this i guess is the shocker but not really supirising wow im missing the game , i use to play it around 5 hours a day most days , even come home 6 am get on do my dailys wich take about a hour but these days im lucky for a hour , yes im sure your all thinking now , oh my god what a junkie and yes your right , but honestly i get a huge amount of enjoyment out of it , i dont play it like 17 hours a day like many in my guild , i have a lovley slave and a good lil man , but as i look around my deak i have wow , wow and more wow around me , and its something i am passionate about and i want more of, but i feel i cannot do it , and its not because of slave or the boy, its i have too much to do right now  too much work around the house and the old one too  , it know many would think im a freak , but think about it , im at home , im not at a pub drinking or meeting half drunk girls doign god knows what , nor am i out with theboyz getting up to god knows what , im at home on a computer having fun ,
but for now ive need to catch up on the washing and need to do this and do that and it needs to be done , plus my life is diffrent too and i need to adjust to that , before i could get up hope on line and wow my brains out for 5 hours get off eat more wow , washing and then dvd and so forth , now i have slaves needs and the lil mans long before i think of wow ,
i think i need to re adjust my times to play ,
writting this blog has lifted my spirts a little i must admit ,
So for now im oging to watch a dvd with my hot lil slave , im sure she will read this ( hello sexy slave)
i am very very lucky man i have a really nice slave ( lil freaky somethimes but a great slave) and a awesome lil dude i love and im a proud dad 
:)

So here we are

this will be a mish mash post i think..............well its just over a week from when we got the keys not even a week for us on moving in , its been hard with my knees this bug that just dosnt go away ( my voice is feels like its rubbed on sandpaper) and genral bumps and grumps, we had a loving weekend i played with slave friday sat and sunday , each time in diffrent ways , i want to do this as i want slave to feel many aspects of play and i dont want to have her know what it will be , like watching tv knowing whats comming on oh its a repeat , master will just spank me and there we go .
However poor slave is having a bad run and not feeling 100%
plus the fact her laptop died and her phone isnt going to be around much longer either, its beena bad trot for her the last few days.
Im left with a problem of sorts too , fear , im a prick to buy for my birthday and christmas i really am , to date only once in my life ive been shocked bye a birthday presant and boy it made my eyes pop out of my head lol , But slave says she has gotten me something that i cannot dislike and thats where the fear comes in , Dont get me wrong i will love it no matter what it is , the gift comes with love and that in its self is the good thing , but sadly i fear the gift , too many times ive been given this "amazing thing that i will be shocked or swept off my feet" and yet like i said that has only happened once.
I trust slave and she knows me very well , the item i will assume is a WoW item , yes i play wow alot i know im a total nerd but its my enjoyment besides slave and the kids ,
I guess i should be more thinking about a gift for her than what she has for me , and she isnt hard to buy gidts for but that first christmas togther i want is something lasting , i want it something we can look back on in 10 years and smile and think happy thoughts ,
well thats the plan lol
im tired and very sore and have work in the morning , as much as i want to hoon the net , lets face it my computer is here 90% to play wow and 10% everything else lol
i just hope i get some time off from work , im only working 4 hours but fucking hell it drags , and i just want to curl up with kitty slave and the boy and sleep
out lil family unit all happy
Master

my last post for a while

this will be my past post for a while due to having to move the computer and so forth , so whats been going on? moving and more moving and did i metion moving lol , i have some concerns for slave she was moody brumpy and well not well behaved , these are the days that will stress her out and this will show me in some ways how strong or not she truly is ,
For moving is going to be very stressful and hard , im sure she will pull though abd be better for it. Im doing my best to keep her not stressed but i have to admit its getting to me too , but i will be strong, the main bit for me is getting the new place set up , once the beds are put togther and computers up and running fridge has food and a meal can be cooked , i will be happyer , cos after that were over the half way mark , once were in the new house with the big stuff i will be  a lot happyer
I guess for now my 2 big problems are the movers tomorrow and the unpacking once the stuff has arrived,
but this is a good day and honor will be saved and shown , and my slaves inner love will shine and i shall feel her glow

Master