the whole 9 years

Well what a few weeks has been and it seems to be getting worse and more confusing ,
For anyone out there that reads this ( besides my cute lil slave) ive been on workers comp for about 6 months now.The pain in my knees is huge my back is sore and ive been on a doctors circut with them all saying the same thing, the guy is in pain he needs surgery, now if thats not enough ive had my pay drop be 350 a pay ,and i seem to have post tramatic stress and depression,the depression i guess has really hit home for me last night.Slave went of to her larp ,i didnt want to go or join in or really do anything, we where invited to a party but i know slave gets execited about larp so i made sure she went.
I came home feeling a great saddness like someone had told me family had died, its not gone away ,i seem to be on the edge of crying without crying, as for post tramatic stress , yes i feel that too , im getting annoyed with simple things. like my mother-in-law wanting smokes all the time ,or a hairbrush on theground or little things that really shouldnt annoy me , its like everything is a epic tragdy and im the one that has found it ,
So what do i do ??? body screwed brain not working, lack of pay, simple
I FIX IT ! im not going to stay depressed im going to fight it bye all means ,with my hot lil slave bye myside and the boy ,i can do most things( execpt clean and fold washing it seems)
the body i can lose weight i can go to the gym and lose the weight to help out my knees , and back,the mental stuff......................................i dont want to start taking tablets but if there is no other way then so be it ,
so in closing on this rather odd blog , im scared work seems to be leading me around blind not telling me a thing , im worried about money im worried about my slave and boy , i just want some answers

Master

guess whos comming to dinner?

yes slaves mum arrives about a week or so ealyer than had planned , im in too minds about it, i know her and her mother have been very strained for a while then happy , however i rember the last time she was here , just as slave and i was getting together, i rember the more icky more than the good , not that i think there was much good , i have to show the olive branch , and i will give the whole dam tree if i have to ,i can only hope she shwos resepct while being a guest,this is where i get undone ,to me honor is very important, If im in anothers  home i know im a guest but i also know i dont have the right to be mean or nasty , now i know slaves mum has mental problems and back pain but she has meds for them , her refusal to take them or let them run out its our fault and why do we need to suffer her wraith,
anyways long story short ,im here to start a fresh page with her to start anew , i can only hope this time we can all be on that same page ,,,,,,and slave has just turned the light off without asking me did i want it on ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,grrrrrrr lol