Well christmas is done and dusted and we had a blast , i got some nice new kinky ,,,,,, i dont know why im writing all this only one that reads this is slave , i dont have any freinds or even anyone that reads this
Its odd the more i hear about these freinds i wounder what my life would have been with them , would i have been a better or worse person?
I can understand the conecpt of freinds how it works .....................to a point , not ever having one i can only assume so much , at the moment i get most of it , someone i can go over have a coffee talk about this and that , talk "shop" with , but im not sure if i can trust some one im not sleeping with with so much, my kink lifestyle means i have to keep many things hidden and to be honest 99% of the kink ppl arent the type i want to know that well , ive been there and thhere all so clickly so , inner circle and back stabbing . i ended up being fearful of munches to be honest , the back stabbing mind control who is in and who isnt lol ,
For now i do feel alone, slae is great and her and the boy are my lil perfection , but i have to admit , i do want to try this freinds thing , it seems nice someone i can hang with .... and i want slave to make new freinds and have her go off do coffee and cake and the like
The heat the last few days has been monsterous , i mean fucking hell so hot i cannot even move outside cos of the heat BUT its worse now , im hurting and hurting bad bad and oh my god bad , its turned very muggy here and my left knee is hurting bad, normally to hurt this bad i would need to be at work for 12 hours and on my feet for most of it , but i woke up with it and fucking hell dose it hurt ,
Slave bought me this amazing book ,,,,,here i go again , slave is the only one that reads this and yet i assume im writing for a grop of ppl intersted in my life , its fair to say im a loner have been all my life , the outcast the forsaken , problem is now i want to try to be more , b ut i have no idea , how do you pic a freind and how dose this bond grow?
im outer my depths here , mayeb i just need to find a young Dom or sub and help them though there early years of kink talk them though it ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,no that wouldnt work they would go to muches hear im a serial killer or rapist or god knows what these days ,
vanilla freind it is and keep the real me hidden ,,,,,no that dont work cos im keeping things from my new freind , back to me world lol im not perfect far from it but i think its safer there untill i find some one who as slave puts it , trys hard to be my freind then i will try back hard . sadly i dont se anyone even trying lol
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