My bad day too

Masters day ,,, man its been a nightmare of sorts , i kept waking up during the night with cold sweats , had without a doubt the most horrifc nightmates things they dont even make movies about , vos there that bad ,
I didnt get to be too late lastnight just about 1 am , its been hard of late in a lazy way , ive been told NOT to lift anything heavy not to do too much not to do this or that to help my kneels heal and im finding it vert frustrating, i want to move big heavy boxes move this here and there  and i cannot and its driving me insane , i feel like a big monster chained down, i cannot be whom i am , not to say im a big out doors man or i love to lift bricks in the heat or rain , but i want to do more than i am doing, Anyways back to what i was ranting about, i got to bed 1 am woke up 3 or 4 times in the night , i got up at 7-30 told slave to go back to bed, the next 3 hours was th boy full throttle , my head was beating like a jack hammer my body hurts all over amd i just wanted to run off to the computer and hide for a while , Wich is unfair , but a the same token i find it dose relive my head aches and i feel better after killing players in pvp ,
But slave has posted i dont do much around the house, and she is right im not working full time i do have more time on my hands and i should do more then pick up after the boy and bits here and there ,
will i do more? yes bt i have to admit right now im sore very very sore tired and my head hurts, but i must rember slave has all of this and the boy too ,
Masters out there rember as much as your the man of the house you must pick up the slack where needed,
I also think once we have moved there will be huge changes in all of us the boy slave and me will not have such huge stress over our heads , the boy will have a new place to play in with new rules and new things to enjoy , slave will have the "dream kitchen " with the island , i will be happy just a roof over our heads and play happy familys,
Once again i get side tracked , for now i have to admit i really dont want to clean but want shouldnt come into it , this house ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, this house when i moved in with my ex was to be the shinning star to be socail and have this life the ex wanted , now i see it as a place with stairs , its not my home its what the ex wanted , i see it all the time all the bad thoughts of what was once ,
the new house will breath life into us all

So for now , i hurt , im tired and i just want to have the money all paid up in front sighned the paper work and be moving into the new place

Master is a bit selfish at times , its something i will need to work on to be a better Master